I've been feeling pretty bogged down lately, school has been kicking my butt and I come home every day exhausted. So tired that I fall asleep for at least an hour after we are home each day. Then, I usually have only enough energy to half-heartedly finish homework and make dinner and then I usually fall asleep on the couch again until Adam makes me go to bed. It's not very pretty, and I've been getting so mad at myself for falling asleep every day. I think part of it is because Adam and I haven't been able to take very good care of ourselves lately, so we only eat lunch about twice a week so it makes sense that I come home exhausted because by that point my body is literally eating itself. It's not healthy and it's not what I had pictured my life looking like this semester, but we only have four more days and our schedules will change. Even next semester we won't be so crazy busy and will actually have time to make lunches for ourselves.
Because of this ongoing exhaustion, I haven't been very good at making time for God. I sleep late and give myself barely enough time to get ready, and then I fall asleep again practically as soon as I walk through the doors to our apartment at night. In that kind of a schedule, there isn't much room for quiet times or journaling or prayer or worship times. It's my own fault, and I am regretful when I think about my choices. I am realizing I just don't feel like myself when I'm not spending time with God. I feel empty, and life feels meaningless and dry. It's not a very fruitful way of living and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of living in a slump, living as if I'm half asleep all the time, eyes closed to God and His presence. Today marks day one of making quiet times a priority once again, day one of relying on the Holy Spirit again, day one of being aware of God's presence. It's a choice to spend time with God, a choice to worship Him with my life. So starting today, I am choosing to turn back to God and remember I am here to glorify Him, not to treat my comfort like it's the most important thing in my life. I had quiet time this morning, and can tell you I already can tell that it makes a difference in the way I view life and interact with others.
Because of this ongoing exhaustion, I haven't been very good at making time for God. I sleep late and give myself barely enough time to get ready, and then I fall asleep again practically as soon as I walk through the doors to our apartment at night. In that kind of a schedule, there isn't much room for quiet times or journaling or prayer or worship times. It's my own fault, and I am regretful when I think about my choices. I am realizing I just don't feel like myself when I'm not spending time with God. I feel empty, and life feels meaningless and dry. It's not a very fruitful way of living and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of living in a slump, living as if I'm half asleep all the time, eyes closed to God and His presence. Today marks day one of making quiet times a priority once again, day one of relying on the Holy Spirit again, day one of being aware of God's presence. It's a choice to spend time with God, a choice to worship Him with my life. So starting today, I am choosing to turn back to God and remember I am here to glorify Him, not to treat my comfort like it's the most important thing in my life. I had quiet time this morning, and can tell you I already can tell that it makes a difference in the way I view life and interact with others.